Two Sons in Prison
I’m a 59 year old mother with two sons in prison. One has been gone for 18 years and the other for 19 years. One is 37 and the other turned 39 today. I’ve been holding the pain in for many years and today I heard the pain and hurt in my son’s voice. He was like a little kid; he said “I love you mommy.” He’s 39 year old and for the first time I felt it; my heart was broken.
Usually I talk to him and as long as I hear his voice, the birthday son, I know he’s ok, but today my soul was ripped out my body. I screamed, yelled out, “Lord help me, the pain is to much to bear alone. I can’t do this any more by myself.” I cried, cried, cried and as I’m typing right now I’m still crying.
I can’t get over the pain and hurt in seeking. I can’t explain it. It feels like someone has a knife in my heart and won’t pull it out. I cried, “Lord help me, tell me what to do.” I felt like jumping out the window. I felt a powerful voice telling me to get up and call someone. I jumped for my purse and immediately made the call. A wonderful peaceful voice was on the other end and I thank the Lord she answered. She listened as I cried and she spoke to me with such assurance that I’m not alone. She prayed for me.
So here I am trying to learn how to let all this pain that’s been bottled up for so long, and I truly from my heart, thank her.
Submitted by: Anonymous Washington
Editor: Thank you for sharing and know that you are not alone in your struggles. The pain that you explain is felt by many of us that have had a loved one taken into the prison system. Your faith and support of those around you will get you through these tough times. We hope you are reunited with your sons soon.